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Thursday, September 30, 2010

everytime will like this... i dont know why she cant just tell me str... she say she dont know when i m serious and when i m not.. so do i... i dont even noe when she is serious n when she is not... everytime gt smthgon her mind she will just say nth... den ask her abt it she refuse to say... den when she ask me abt wht i thinking she expect me to tell her everything.. what is this?..
den keep asking me things that she noe the ans but she said she wan to hear it from me... but after that still will talk abt it..
happy moment doesnt stay for long..sometime changes is fast enough that we dont even realise abt it....

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Wednesday, September 29, 2010

ZZZ...been thinking quite alot of stuff...shld i or shld i not?...arghhhhh...a qn that's fking hard to make a decision...although the ans for me is an obvious no....but...selfishness dont help in anything... how long can it be ?...

was seriously shocked today...she know what is the surprise thing abt...omg.... this make me even worst...dont know is a gd or bad things now...didnt realize that i had gave her a big clue...wthhhh....

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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

went out wit her and her friends... i dont know why.. today i m damn tired... just cant stop yawning... zzz...
ya and also quite alot of stuff i heard from her make me thinks abt some stuff... zzz... is not reali a big issues... so didnt reali said it out...just keep it will be fine
only thing i can say.. i dont mind meeting wit her friends.. but just tell me straight...as long as she is happy i m fine wit it... although i wont talk much infront of her friends to her.. cuz is like weird?.. n most of the time she talk to me halfway.. den talk to her friend... so i was like is she talking to me or her friend?..so i decided not to listen...
ystd was surprised she told me that thing she actually wanna to do it but didnt...ya although is just say.. is better den nv even think of it... it mayb a small things but will mean alot to me.. haha...

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Sunday, September 26, 2010

outside wit her now.. hahaha...she wanted half an hour to see her stuff.. so just let her be den... nth i can do rite..
hahaha... mind ar mind is so damn fcuk up... am i too petty in someways or am i just too da nan ren in the sense?.. is hard to come to an conclusion wit that...hais.. seriously i been thinking too much stupid shit ... but in the other hand she didnt even helps.. she will just continue adding it... which make it even worst at times..
sometime i think is hardfor her la...she like to go out wit him and talk to the other him.. but i just dont like.. how long can this lasts..?... no idea ... ended up like what she say to me... pple will start to complain.. why cant i go out n blah blah blah... just hope that day will nv come.

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Thursday, September 23, 2010

i dont know why... just feel kinda down suddenly.. dont really feel like talking abt it... stuff and stuff in my head is like no ending... fcuk up... why cant just be normal huh... why cant just forget everything zzz...

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Emotions will fade
Like day to night
They come fast
And leave the same...

so is that a gd or bad things?
haha... back again to blogging...mayb sometimes stuff need not to say.. just keep it one corner will be better?...
until today...same problem still occurring same stuff still stuck in my head...sometimes i really wonder...do i deserve to be in this relationship?...been reading on stuff which i think can helps to improve myself..but in the end it still failed because all those stuff stated if u r that kinda of person u dun deserve in that relationship...hahaha... character is so damn hard to change but i shld continue trying...
i hate it whenever i in camp things started to be different...seriously like nth can be help...but when we are out together...feeling is so damn different... i feel gd to have her ... i feel happy when wit her... ya tat's the facts making me love her...
how and what can i do to prevent those unnecessary stuff to happened?... ans is i dont really know...mayb i shld find a way...
her past is over...so no point bringing it back... but at times i will think of this although is hurtful.. she still thinking of her ex... and perhaps i just the spare...

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